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2010-04-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

HEYS LITTLE PEPOS:D -waveswaves-
I've moved, relink pls, tyvm^^
http://that-ineffableluv-of-hers.blogspot.com/

:DD

2010-01-30T19:49:00.006+08:00

yohsyohs pepos:DD
had a DAMNDAMN AWESOME(more awesome than i can ever say) CAMP'2010 and BIRTHDAY
on 27-29JAN'10 and on 29JAN'10 respectively!!:DD

i'm busy t update now cos i got to go and do my hw naos(guai right:P),
so i'll update abt th two events(above) perhaps tomorrow, alrights?:D

lastly, i want t wish myself a very HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYBIRTHDAY!!!! xDDDDD
btw, THANKS t everyone who wished me happy birthday!^^
SUPERRR LOVE ALL OF YOU YEAHS?:DD
mwacks! -inserts many luvszxc- :>

alrights, ciaoz^^

(:

2010-01-23T05:00:00.003+08:00

hey yoh people, until now, 5am, i'm still wide awake hehhehs
perhaps i slept too much th past 2 days alr xD

my stomach's feeling superrr sour-y now
it's been like this fr few hours,
i guess i can't fall asleep probably because of this T.T

anyw, i'm watching Hi My Sweetheart now t kill boredom
chiong-ing t watch as much as possible too xD
i'm superrr touched by this one part on ep 10 pt 7/9

Dalang: 那又怎样, 一只分红顽皮豹能代表什么
Baozhu: 证明我从来没有忘记过你啊
Dalang: 我不知道我要不要相信你
Baozhu: 不管你相不相信, 我真的没有对不起你
Dalang: 真的吗？那你还爱我吗？
Baozhu: 我从来没有停止一天爱你
Dalang: 那如果我已经不是林达浪了, 你还会爱我吗？
Baozhu: 不管你变成什么样子, 我都会爱你

zomg, super touching and sweeet right?
AWWS, damn envious ):
seeing th conv here is no kick de, you've got t catch th drama yehs^^

and omg, cried when i watched ep 10 part 8/9, 4:00-4:30
first time i cried over a drama manzxc, superr sad then ):
perhaps it brought back some memories.. or it didnt?(HUHS? what talking me)
HAHAS, nevermind, i think i'm speaking nonsense now,
cos i tend to when it's during th wee hours
so don't take my words t heart yehs?(:

anyw, g2g back t NUH next thurs, halfway through th camp,
t fix back th metal thingy again:S
don't know if chers allow liddat anot:X
it's compulsory t go t NUH luhs ):
hais, btw i think i won't be putting on braces in time for CNY!!!!!!!:'((((((((((((((((((((((((((
sad die me, hais!.. i stil thought me and eliz can wear th same pink braces fr CNY:(
hais nvm la

goodnights!:D

(:

2010-01-22T21:42:00.005+08:00

yohs people!
long time no update.
i think i'm just gettin more and more lazy each day huhs:s
hais, boring life, seriously. ):

anyw, yest aft woke up in th morning,
went t skoo already and realised i gt high fever while in skoo
zai bodohzxc, 38 deg celsius
when i went t polyclinic see doc, became 38.2 D:
aft tht, i went home, and it increased t 38.5
when slpin, it went up t 38.9D:
stil hav 39++ before D:

superr crazy can,
i oso nvr kena drenched by rain, i eat healthily, exercise and all those,
bt idk why suddenly will sick:OO
weird huhs?

perhaps is cos on Wed, when i was talkin t daryl,
he was saying that he sick many times in a yr,
me: eh, lousy la you! i one yr only sick like 2-3 times, u sick so many times, TSKTSK..
thn nxt day kena high fever LOL
thn there was once last yr,
i was tellin my frens tht i wont gt sick so easily
in th end, th nxt day, i sick, and it lasted fr damn long?:O

hahas. btw, i just realised tht jiahao senior same birthday as me
COOOL!~~:DD hahas, sian sia
he 16 this yr
he: -Jiahao- says:
*can watch nc 16 officially
*hahaha
HMMPHS!:@
i stil nd wait fr nxt yr's 29jan LOL!
nvm, i shall wait patiently, i dw so fast older by 1 yr anywaes(:

just hope i'll get well soon,
fast recovery(:

btw, this is hilarious xD

goodbyes:D

(:

2010-01-19T20:57:00.004+08:00

yohs, i'm back hehes^^
but i'm gonna postpone th pics and updates
abt th Sentosa and Far East thingy t nxt time k?:B
HAHAS, i'm too lazy now:P
so this is only a short post(:

oh ya, because on one of th metal thingy on my teeth,
gt chipped off, so today went back t NUH,
th NEW FACULTY OF DENTISTRY:D
mine was emergency case,
so it was another male dentist that attended t me
when i sittin down tht time, i did not lean against th chair
thn when he came over, he pushed my head onto th chair damn forcefully(WTH)
i was taken aback totally loh!
but that was not all,
he damn rough with my teeth can,
i was damn scared when he plucked off th whole metal thingy.
and idea why i was scared?
because he PLUCKED TH THING OFF WITH TRUCKLOADS OF STRENGTH!>:(
stil scraped until my gum loh><

bt anyw, i feel alittle weird now tht i have my 'proper mouth' back
hehes, no more of eating slowly n lousy pronunciation!!^^ YAY!!:DD
but th sian part is that next thurs(th 2nd day of sec 3 camp)
i nd rush back t NUH at 3pm t put tht thing back on again
hais, i wish today nvr take out at all,
so there wouldnt be a nd fr me t RE-ADAPT t th metal thingy all over again nxt thurs:'(
oh yehs, wadeva, im tired of complainin liao

oops, i actually had a lot to post, but suddenly,
i'm dumbfounded now:X HAHAS
i'm sorry, but i got to say tht i really forgot what i wanted t post liao
so post next time,

btw, please check up th sidebar on th left,
and take a mental note of a date
under th Yours Truly tab please, ty xD

that's all, byebye!:D

(:

2010-01-17T00:11:00.003+08:00

yohs people!
i'm just back from Sentosa and Far East Plaza with eliz n her frens today!!:DDD
was SUPERRR AWESOME yehs?^^
love th 'EXERCISING PART' hehehes xD

i'm tired now, so i'll post up th pics and elaborate more tmoro then.
*twists and waves:D
byes!

p.s. That's it, i'm seriously tired of hanging on.
So what if i'm laughing on th outside? It's not my heart that's laughing..

cute lah duh 2, dont think wrong horhs xD

:D

2010-01-15T22:43:00.011+08:00

yohsyohs people:D
i'm gonna type in proper english today^^

life's a little more busy these days as compared to last wk
but gladly, i did pay lots of attention in class these days
omg, i'm so proud of myself^^V

anyw, i'm a chairman of 3B now(:
have another responsibility already, but that's good
hehes, i promise to be a proper and responsible chairman:D
i hope i'll be a better chairman as each day passes:>

lazy talk about yesterday, cos i have stm:S
as for today, it was a disaster:(
in th mornin, ms zarina asked me to give out th new timetable to 3B'ians during class
but because th whole day's lessons,
were those where almost all of us had t keep on changing classes
and i was not in my own classroom.
by the end of th last period, i chiong-ed back to class to see who haven't take th timetable yet
i think still gt like 10+ ppl have not taken it yet ):
find ms zarina> decided to call those whom have not gotten it yet
and inform them of th subjects they're having on mon,
jiayous to me, there's a handful t go ):

anyw, though i'm blogging and explaining about it now,
it doesn't mean that i'm trying to blame on stuffs or people,
or that i'm trying to shirk responsibility and get my butt out of this matter.
But instead, all i'm trying to do is explain, and apologise(:
So, to those who have not gotten it yet, my apologies,
i'm really sorry ):

slacked with clique at skoo canteen after skoo,
had some fun chattting and playing some lame games
oh manzxc, i <3 my perfume & deodorant ttxm!!!:P
actually planned to go eva's condo's gym with eva, eliz & phyllis t workout + run
in th end, we postponed it because i had no proper attire for it, SORRY! ):
we'll go running soon on th new path by th canal,
from yew tee all th way to ten mile junction there yehs?:DD <3!

lrt-ed home with eliz aftermath(:
going to SENTOSA with her tomorrow, YAYNESS ttm!!:DD

by the way, i've changed to a new blog song:D
i think th song's really sweeet!^^
the lyrics are interesting too,
and, i just find the melody beautiful, especially the chorus!:D
thus, hope you guys will like it too ;winks^^

okays, i'm tired,
so here's an abrupt ending,
BYES:D

(:

2010-01-13T21:10:00.012+08:00

present mood: excited over dance:D
present song: Miss Independent:DDD

Sucky day today,
Kept on feeling emotional and down,
Dk if it was because of th moodswing
Or th things that upset-ed me today, that’s affectin me.
Super don’t feel like talkin t anyone today.

I realized that being hateful & resentful only brings about more misery.
So why make myself suffer?

But I’m scared that I will change back into tht primary skoo girl from th past,
Where I hate talkin t others or that I love being alone:X
That feeling is definitely unbearable.

Nvm, I think I’m gonna resolve to do well in studies

& pay FULL attention in class from now onwards:D
I guess that’s th only way t overcome some of th sufferings.

btw, took individual photo tdae, i think is fr IC(?)

omg.

me: *smiles naturally

photographer: don't bite ur lips

me: ?? *stop smiling

photographer: *abt t snap..

me: *smiles naturally again

photographer: don't bite ur lips!

me: ??!!!! i didnt!>:(

in th end, i didn't rlly smile until ):

I guess it's gonna be an ugly photo:S

anyw, i want t take up a dance course outside real soon!!!

thinkin abt it makes me excited:D

i superrr love those smexy cool moves:>

hahas, im unsure of th exact dance tht i wan t learn yet

but i alr hav a vague decision on wat i wan^^

tell u guys abt it later^^

these are a few vids tht i find damn FREAKINN AWESOMEE!!:DDD

i'm superrr addicted t all these dance videos le:>

thgh this is slow, but it's superr slick ;winks

n btw, did i mention i luvzxc this song ttxxxm? xD

damn, i love th part from 0:51-1:11!!!!!:DDD

superr chio manz(:

watch 0:38-0:47:D

not plannin t learn this, 1:18-1:29:D

totally lmao LOL
if he was a girl, i'd totally love her,
but he's a guy.. abit gay loh:S
But, i still love th moves!:D

p.s.I don’t know why but I felt so lonely and empty today.

Loneliness is a form of cruel torture, mentally and physically.

:(

2010-01-12T22:20:00.007+08:00

present mood: MOODSWINGS, i dont even know which feeling i'm havin now>:(
present song: Baby Dui Bu Qi

yohs people, back t post again..

bcos apparently, i'm feeling awful now again )):

there's no one whom i can talk abt my stuffs and troubles to:'(

i actually wanted t do my hcl hw now de,

seeing th way how some, sort of attitude me,

i seriously no mood t do nw le:'(

wth, whatever le, i shan't care liao

today due t some stuffs then alr gt moodswings

then now stil nd see others' faces._.>

feeling bad engh, and yet you all still want t rub salt in:S

attitude rgt?

jiayous, kp up th good work.

i wash my hands off le.

THANKS.

suan le, i dw care.

i go slp okays.

let cher scold me fr not handin in hw again tmoro:X

'Don't give up and stand till th end.'
Can i do it?
oh whatever. shuddup julia._.

p.s. Do what you deem fit. I swear I won't care anymore
i hate this life of mine.

:(((

2010-01-12T18:17:00.004+08:00

present mood: damn down..
present song: 心跳

i'm having those down moods again..

idk why,

why isit tht i'm feeling sad all over again?

Why? Why?

WHY??? )':

i hate this feeling. It left me fr awhile.

But now, it's back t haunt me once again.

Okay, wait.

Perhaps i've alr been feeling like this th whole time.

Perhaps, it was all just a facade?..

Deceit.

Illusion.

Delusion.

Deje vu.

Mirage.

Deception.

Make-believe.

Anything, you name it..

If only, this sad thing will go away.

But.. it wont ):

And I don't think it ever will..

..don't think too much

(:

2010-01-12T02:01:00.003+08:00

present mood: bored ):
present song: My Immortal

yohs people! 4 days nvr post le xD

cos i was too caught up with skoo and hectic life(:

surprised why i'm still postin at such wee hours?

tell you why, bcos, apparently~

i'm stil trying t finish my HCL hw

it suckszxc t th core please._.

but anyw, oh well, die in class tmoro ba

wish me lucks! xDD *cross fingers*

i go slp now liao, cos i don feel like doin le:P

tweeties!:D

(:

2010-01-07T23:41:00.004+08:00

present mood: BORED )):

heyheys:D

nt much t post abt yest n tdae i guess,

bcos all lessons hav resumed n nothing much t talk abt(:

let's talk abt today, hmms..

aft skoo str8 away rushed t Lot 1 n had lunch at Subway wif clique,

at first thgt clique pei-ing me n eliz t Jurong Point

turned out in th end they said they didn't want t go all th way t Jurong Point

so me n eliz went JP alone(:

ard k1 or k2, my mum alr bought me t pierce a earhole on each ear

last wk decided t pierce again thus told eliz abt it

she suggested goin t JP t pierce

eliz pierce 1st, she only pierce 1 earhole,

aft tht she tell me nt pain, turned out at th end aft i pierce finished,

then she tell me is she bluff me de:'(

cos she said she scared i don dare do aft she tell me th truth

HAHAS, a white lie i presume(:

i decided t pierce 2 earholes,

bt i told th guy i only wan try pierce 1 first le then see if i stil wan pierce 1 more

beginnin when i doin th first piercing, i was only a lil' afraid

thn i gripped onto eliz's hand,

wah then suddenly 'TIAK!!!' wah FCUK! pain die me! LOL

thn eliz keep on tell me tht th pain only pain awhile,

thn aft tht will subside le,

th guy then asked me if i stil wan continue

thn i just agreed cos i scared if i don fstr pierce finish then,

i wont dare t pierce again nxt time le, phobia LOL

thn 2nd time pierce, i damn scared,

when he abt t pierce, my body suddenly shivered. wtf lol

thn he said: don jerk ah! LOL

then tiak! again, omg, i gripped onto eliz's hand damn hard LOL

glad it's over liao(:

bought a pair of studs fr $3, piercings:$6, solution: $0.50

$9.50 D: LOL, bye hard-saved savings:'(((

180 home together wif eliz(:

she moved t bukit panjang le, nxt time we can go home together, WEEES!~:DD

on th bus, we kept on tried t stop ourselves from laughin n makin big movements

cos seriously, th piercings fcukin hurt a lot DD:

btw, my fcukin hp line gt terminated by my mum again at 7pm just now-.-

cos i sent $70+ worth of smses while i was in Malaysia last dec, fr holiday

zz, why th smses so ex sia, only sent 50+ smses then $70+ -L-

she say wan stop my line fr 3 mths

just hope wont ba, im so gonna persuade her again t let me hav it back(:

so now, left ear hav 1 piercing, right ear hav 3:DD

LOLOL, yue hao wif eliz mayb june go pierce tragus:D

see how ba, i don dare pierce tragus n th wat orbital(i think?) dere

see how then(:

gotta go slp liao

nights!:D

2010-01-05T22:00:00.003+08:00

present mood: bored t death ):

yohs people!:D

short post today yehs, i'm lazy cos i wanna go audi fast! xD

this mornin assemble at parade square then i pekcek again

cos guess wat? my class nobody go collect newspapers from foyer._.

i was like, 'ay? whr's th newspapers?' when i assembled in class line

then asked ppl pei me along go foyer check

in th end, rlly nobody took th initiative t take it D:

did th job myself then, lol

carried th whole stack of newspapers back t th class

n i ended up gettin a cut on my right middle finger T.T

all bcos of th straps wif sharp ends tht hold th newspapers together

LOL, is kena cut horh, nt point too much middle finger:>

n omg, suckzxc:'(

i in bio/chem class, taizi in phys/chem class:S

thn eng, omg, even worse

from band 1 eng class dropped down t band 3 _l_

tmd, eliz n QinAiDe oso drop ):

QinAiDe worse:(

thn some ppl *ahemahem,

eg. sister'(xP), gt upgraded into higher bands:XXX

they say wat is based on last yr paper 1 results

!&^#@* why dw based on paper 2 sia

me n eliz scored fcukin well fr tht

our paper 1 pass by 1 mark only, tsk>:(

bt nvm, cher say wk 4 gt 1 diagnostic test,

is another test, our bandings will depend on it

Phew, just hope i can rlly score well fr it luh

i wan get into band 1, ms audrey lee is band 1 cher leys:D

hehehes, jiayous t ppl who wan upgrade!^^

you can do it:D

btw, taizi oso in band 3 eng class xD

LOL, nahs, just jkin la eye candy only la ;winks(:

HAHAS, sister jealous

LMAO, she band 2, AWWWWS... :P LOL

nxt was chi, this 1 oso suay,

kena miss yong fr hcl cher :XX

die, hw nxt time cnt hand in late liao:(

social studies, eeeewwwww... ):

gt mr yeo(i think?) as cher

oh manzxc, beginning of th lesson he alr talk alot weird weird stuffs le

like, ...

okay nvm, i lazy elaborate hahas

just take it tht he talk very slow, with long pauses in between his sentences,

n he tells us his thgts which like, totally none of our business and tht we dc at all?

LOL, i bet no one was listenin t him,

he kept on side-tracking:X

SS was th most borin lesson tht i simply cnt rmb anything abt it

at least, i did rmb th other lessons okays:D

geog aft tht, gt ms zarina as cher

LOL, i wanted ms koh instead de,

since she was th one who taught me geog in sec 1(:

somemore lessons are held in Learning Centre(library) leys!

Air-conditioning!^^

hahas, bt nvm la, my senior say ms zarina is a fun cher(?)

yah, anything ba, LOL

ended skoo at 1.35 while th rest ended at 3.20 cos they had A-Maths

lunched at limbang wif creme' partnurh n weiling,

went back t skoo t meet sister', eva, eliz, mandy, phyllis

n went lot 1:D

marcus, casper, irfan, junjie came t meet us aft tht

slacked at Lot 1 a while n we went home

ayay, i reached home b4 6pm ley!

improvement yehs?^^v

n btw, sister' oso said when did i suddenly became so guai liao

LOL, we were in th toilet

me: eh, fstr leys, i wan go back class liao, later late, i think cher come liao la, fstr!!..

i dw be late fr class, later give cher bad impression of me ):

sister': ay, when u so guai wan go back class quickly de ah?

HAHAHS:D

that's all ppl, i practised split last night n this afternoon

gonna do so again tonight, provided if i'm nt exhausted ):

i only slept 4 hrs th last 2 nights T.T

bt lucky i took a 1h nap just nw(:

gonna go chiong 1 eng comphre ws nw liao,

cos i'm rlly determined t gt into band 1 eng class manzxc ):

jiayous julia!:D

tatas!

:DDDDDDD

2010-01-04T22:32:00.009+08:00

present mood: bored:c

yohs:D

today skoo was quite awesome!

went t skoo early in th mornin at 6.35! didn't meet my 6.30 target ):

was raining heavily n i had t get up from my comfy bed at 5.45!:X

reach skoo, n ooh yeah~ :D

love seeing th sec 1 pupils lost n nervous faces la

HAHAHAS, last yr i oso purposely went skoo early

cos i wan see th sec ones scared and all those things

LOL, bian tai rgt?:D

kay la, th rest skipskip

i still find it abit weird t see clique n skoo de guys wear long pants

bt anyw, i prefer th guys wearin long pants rather than th shorts

i think they look more mature and cool wif it:D

hehes, like, i suddenly went crazy wif sister' over their long pants

cos can see ard th ankle dere when they sit down!

omg, i'm like such a total perv >:(

i think every guy in my clique look so much shuai-er wif long pants can!:DD

HAHHAHAS, oh manzxc, they shud see this xDD

in class,

omg, my class damn dead :'((((

like when cher ask q, nobody wan rply de loh ):

then whole class dead silence fr mins,

nobody wan ans, give recommendations, or at least talk a bit de loh

totally disappointed wif my class this mornin ):

like, i was regrettin fr appealin into 3B, th whole time

shouldn't hav appealed t 3B loh, afi n QinAiDe' all say 3A damn fun!! >:(

lol, my appeal shouldnt be successful ma

thn i in 3A nw le ):

but luckily, stil gt Ms Audrey Lee in my class

hahas, love her manzxc, she's my super duber uber motivator

cos just when i was abt t give up on my class,

she was th one who did nt gave up on our class n kept on encouragin us(:

aft listenin t her th whole mornin, i realised all th things she'd said very true luhs

so i've decided t work hard, n achieve wat i want t achieve!:D

i shall try tmoro ba^^v

1st time in sec skoo i so determined n so motivated academically siol ><>

th last time i was like this was durin pri skoo days

LOL, see! i told u! i'm becomin guai le!

even afi n weiling today oso say i like chge into a guai kia okay!^^

i nvr fail grooming checks, gt ans chers' q spontaneously in class,

and paid full attention HORHS!

hahas, i think i'm gonna fulfil my new year resolutions soon!(:

okay, what a borin post today LOL

nd chiong studies tmoro le xD

so i guess i hav t be a guai girl n slp at 1130 today!

(i slept 4 hrs last night only leys:( )

so, nights(:

TOODLES!^^

:D

2010-01-03T21:24:00.002+08:00

present mood: was damn sad just nw. But now, i totally cnt stop laughing out loud.
and it's all because of Q:DDDD
presently... i'm SWEEET SINGLE!!!:DD

Omg, damn giddy today cos lack of slp ):
Slept at 4 liddat cos on phone wif QinAiDe’
Talked damn alot can, <3 hahas
Poured out everything tht i’d want t complain n rant abt t her
N we talked abt some problems too:x
Kept each other updated:D

My mum 9am jiu wake me up le-.-
But stil okay la, went fr dim sum buffet
Pics up tmoro i promise:D
Now i just want t post a short post only,
Bcos time doesn’t permits me t hav a long post(:

Perhaps i shall slp at 1plus today?
Early rgt! HAHAS
I stil rmb th 1st yr i was like almost th 1st t reach parade square,
2nd yr, i was abit later.
So this yr i wan try 1st ;winks
Nd wake up at 545 uhs, cos i wan reach at 630?
LOL, i scared i overslp or my family drag my time:x

Hmms, i’m abit excited fr skoo tmoro,
but i also abit nervous cos i hvt finish my skoo hw
n i oso dw so fast strt studying again leys ):
stressed D:
idk what will happen tmoro leys, so nervous:x LOL
confirm will hav butterflies in my stomach tmoro morning.

Just th thgt of skoo reopening, make me excited
Cos all hav new skoo bags, pencil cases,
stationery, books, shoes, hairstyles and uniforms:D

But sian, no more shoppin, no more slackin, lunching with besties, clique and frens le ):
No more using com like nobody’s business D:
Booo>:(

Oh btw, i cut my nails le:’(((((((((((((((
Omg, sad die me.
Bye long nails, bye nail polish ):

Sua, tmoro i just go seesee
Hope everything goes well:D

toodles^^

Sentence of th day:
Th more challenging it is, th more i love it.

:D

2010-01-01T18:27:00.007+08:00

present mood: thinkin of some stuffs?..
present song: Groove Coverage- The End
presently playin: AUDI!!!:DD

yohs ppl:D
HAPPYNEWYEARRR!!!!:DDDDD

yest Countdown at VivoCity was awesome can(:
but wait, it was awesome because of th company i had,
not because of th fireworks can.
th fireworks?? BOOO!!!!
suckzxc manzxc, nvr seen before such a lousy display of fireworks
HAHAS, LOW BUDGET FIREWORKS lmao

aft meetin up at Lot 1,
we headed t VivoCity.
walked ard > dinnered > met eva > walked ard > went skypark
waited ard 45mins t 12midnight.
had lots of laughter over lots of crap which i shan’t elaborate(:

but what saddens me was my mum 0015h
jiu called me t go meet them t go home le :’(
nearly cried then.
Cos there goes my unreasonable mum again.
Everyone’s celebrating over such a day and i g2g home._.
OK WAIT, STOP.
I dw kpkb abt her again.
STRESS AND ANGER MANAGEMENT:D
Wanted so much t post abt my rants abt her aft i reached home at 1
But i was lazy.

2009, byebyes, ILOVEYOU! :D

2010, HIHI fstr come, ILOVEYOUx10000 xDDDD

siao, i don even know if i'd love it loh, oso hvt come-.-

but just hope tht everything goes well ba:D

oh btw, just came out from audi

HAHAS, totally cmi liao, almost 2 mths nvr play

plus, my nails damn long, diff t play

i hav t cut it b4 i can play loh T.T

nxt wk skoo reopen then cut bah:(

nd take lvl 14 license liao:X

nvm, jiayous:D

that's all folks, byes:D

:DDDD

2009-12-31T15:58:00.006+08:00

present mood: excited:D
present song: Two Is Better Than One

yohsyohsyohs ppl!!:DD

tonight goin VivoCity fr Countdown t th NEW YEAR with

Eva, ChuanGuan, Marcus, Casper, Irfan, KamHo, ZiYun, JunJie & Tracy!:D

shermy and glory unconfirmed,

yucks, weiling nt going T.T

hope i won't be upset or angry tonight yehs(:

only a lil' lookin forward t it

cos my mum finally allowed me t go, this mornin,

only on one condition, that they're gonna be at VivoCity too

n i'd hav t be with them too D:

liddat i nd run both sides manzxc:(

nvm, at least better than nth^^

sighs, NewYear shud be worth welcoming,

bt th thing is, skoo reopen le D:

but nvm, i shud welcome th new n out with th old rgt?:D

there goes my sadness, unhappiness and sorrow this yr, esp this holiday!

C'mon newnewnew! XD

i've new NewYear resolutions yehs:D

they're considered as goals too ;winks

*Not from th 'top priority t low priority' order yehs, all as important(:*

Be more guai, be it in skoo or at home.
No vulgarities.(but this one not so urgent, cos no one t scold me anyw:P)
Hand in skoo homework on time, NO COPYING IS ALLOWED.
No more telling of lies.(except fr white lies la:P)
Have stead(OMG, did i sound despo??! xDD) no la, just crapping hehhehs, i'll just let nature take its course yehs? ;winkswinks {EDITED cos brendon say i BHB ROFL} Alot ~~chasers le~~ guys in th world, must 'manman' choose you know:D LOL!!
Bond more with clique', friends, and family!:DD
Must try t pass grooming check!(shud be can, i've a new hairstyle!:>)
Get damn good results!!:DD etc, improve in Chemistry n Maths(T.T), do even better in Biology, Chinese & English!(:
Try t achieve Top 10 position in class!:D
Treat family with more respect, love and concern(:
Be less lazy and do my own ironing and washing of uniforms^^
Practice th piano and do my theory hw at least thrice a week, each session lasting at least half hr:>
Try practicing th split x)
Take up a new dance!^^V And perhaps if time permits, continue ballet from whr i stop in pri 6!! xD

i guess that's all, add in more nxt time(: g2g prepare now.

COUNTDOWNNN, WAIT FR MEE!!!!!:DDDDDDD WEEEES~~^^v

TATA!:DD

:DDDDDD

2009-12-30T22:32:00.038+08:00

29 Dec 2009!!:DD
OH MANZXC! I luv this day loads:D

Went out t bpp fr Pizza Hut(AGAIN?!)
Went fr damn lots of good food these days,
Last wed, Pizza Hut, thurs. Ajisen Ramen, fri, Japanese food, sun, Jack’s Place:D
Bus-ed t bugis street.
Went iluma bugis aftermath, thn to Far East Plaza

Once at MANGO, there was this American cute dude.
And glory was ecstatic over him plox
Then, this guy was abt t go down th stairs while we’re blocking th stairs.
We then stand aside fr him t walk past.
N I was like signaling t glory abt th guy when she shy until fstr walk away! HAHAHAS
After th guy walk past us,
Sister - me: He turned over t look at you leys!
Me: Hahas I saw tht too
Me – Glory: why u so fast walk away sial! He looked at me leys LOL
Glory: NONONO! He didn’t!
Awws.. poor glory, hahas. she kept on denying th fact tht he looked at me LOL

And we headed home!!:DD

Oh btw, at Bugis street th stairway there,
There’s writings on th wall:
‘Any girl who wants free sex, call steven ******** 6.5 CM’
6.5cm DAMN SHORTTT BODOHZXC!!!
RAHAHHAHHAS OMF, laugh die me and sister LOL!!!

&& guess wat, i had done 20 hair extensions
20bucks FLYFLY AWAY T.T
HAHAS, at first i chose a damn dark colour,
thn th lady go choose 1 lighter colour
hope teachers wont catch next wk:XX

i lied t my mum i spent 10bucks on them only
n she alr scold me like shyt liao HAHAHS
n i showed her my hair in th dark, aft i just bathe finished
lol, liddat she cnt see th colour alr, smart ehs^^v

20 bucks was supposed t buy contacts de
guess i wud hav t save 2bucks a day aft skoo reopens manzxc,
D: liddat left 8bucks per day t spend.
i nd contacts t see!
but my mum don let me buy contacts
she say she make specs fr meD:
hao ba, wateva, i nd them t see clearly
i think my degree gone up alot, use too much com alr:(
then aft i buy contacts alr, then i wear contacts ba(:
no money buy contacts, thn wear specs LOL

P.S. ‘’Baby, I wan a patch’’ :(
HAHAHAHS!!!!^^v

2 secret snaps! xD

sister' say she want t endorse this shoe LOL

hahas! glory stil talking

{left}BARE TEETH!!:D

27 Dec 2009:DD
Jack’s Place!! at someplace which I forgot whr:C
Luvzxc th my STEAK AND FISH COMBO! –inserts luvzxc- :DD

oh manzxc! i luv this pic ttxm!:D

25 Dec 2009(:
Th day I went out with my family t town and had Japanese food(:
Th Japanese food was awesome like MADDDD!~~~:D

{left}ay this sparkling red grape drink freakin nice:D

{left}fungi mushroom tht i randomly found by th roadside!(:

24 Dec 2009:D
Th day we went out as a clique t Jurong Point ;winks

ps marcus LOL

wa, how concentrating.. xD

RESULTS!:DD

huiy's cake!

n look at this HAHAHS,

don't mean t laugh at junjie's cake then

But.. oops, i did it again xP

but stil okay la, it takes alot of hardwork fr them t make this cake themselves

and it also takes alot of courage fr them t give their loved ones th cakes(:

it's very sweeet right? xD

just like hw i gave him one fr his birthday in july too(:

yucks, gl faces :X

on th train back t Lot 1(:

{left}i was laughing at an inside joke then

Psst! sister, bangla! LOL!

Lot 1

{right}hahas, my mouth:D

{left}bare teeth again!!:D WTF hahahas

{left}eee :(

:DD

2009-12-29T23:51:00.002+08:00

present mood: soso la, just nw someone made me mad:x
present song: Waiting For You

hmms, i g2g soon,

so i guess i'll post tmoro instead!

SORRYSORRY D:

i kp on delaying hahhas

tmoro! i promise!

all th dued pics n posts wud be up!:D

ok, i'm done^^

fcuk la

2009-12-28T12:02:00.010+08:00

present mood: FCUKIN PISSED.

I hate my fkin mother t th damn core please.
In just idk hw long more, my line’s gonna get terminated again_l_
I last night 5+am cannot slp then ask ppl call me t talk fr half an hr nia,
Then suay suay she come at th last 5mins-.-

Then this morning I called her and ask her not t terminate my line, fr so long,
Beg like 1 stupid girl with no pride,
And you didn’t even cared
You tell me, what kind of mother are you manzxc.
So many teenagers also calling in th nights la,
But did their parents terminate their line?

N-O, NO.
Their parents th most is only keep on nagnagnag, down there kpkb,

scold finish then they shiok alr, then fullstop liao what.
Then only you this over-paranoid and over-obsessive-into-caring mother
Like t care abt this and that and want terminate my line zz

It’s not tht it’s a bad thing you’re caring fr me and whatever fcuk.
What matters most is that you’ve overdone it,
And you’ve stepped over my head, RIGHT OVER TH LIMITS.
And that is why, this time,

I’m not just gonna sit down and be a mute girl anymore.
You want t do this right, bring it on.
Don’t blame me fr how I’m gonna treat th whole family from today

until th day when you’ve finally return me my line.
Don’t think you my mother,
You are th world okay TMD.

One person call nia, then you think I having boy–girl relationship.
PLEASE LA, I tell you I no boyf liao, I even sweared fr you t see I no boyf
But u oso don’t believe don’t care, stil say what ‘Only you yourself know’-.-
People just broke up then you still down there kpkb I gt stead. WTF?
Th fact is that, you don’t even TRUST ME!

She will think I got relationship is also because of my fcukin sister la, nbcb
Go peep into my phone, see my messages and see th sender, see my hp Note
Then go announce t th world,

“Ay, its ‘A’ leys. Ay its ‘Z’ leys. Omg, her BOYF!!!!(???????!!!! _l_) ”
Then anyhow choose one name t tell th whole world tht that guy is my boyf,

and then, I’m being condemned by tht over-obsessesive-into-caring mother of mine-.-
KPO + nonsensical BITCH-.-

Sometimes, right from th start, my mum alr don’t trust me okay.
Tell me pls, with this kind of goddamn mother,
How you ask me be a guai kia sia.
I today will liddat, is also all thanks t her okays
She didn’t give me freedom at all.

And hey, that's th whole point of me being rebellious okay.
She’s over-caring + over-protective, as if if I were t make frens with guys,

I’m gonna get raped or cheated of or whatever she could ever imagine of.

YEAHS, RIGHT-.-
NONSENSE._.

Here I am trying t post abt this,

is not because I just want t attract others’ attention

or tht I want t kpkb, complain this, complain tht t everyone.
I just wanna say, my mother is nt doing th right thing.
I mean, yeah, she meant good right from th start, not tht I don’t appreciate or whatever.
But it’s just that from a right thing, she’d overdone it and it’d become a wrong thing.

Firstly, she wanted all my friends’ hp numbers.

Secondly, she wanted t know about each and every one.

Thirdly, she wanted me t tell her each and every day how much I’d spent on this

and how much I’d spent on that.

Basically, she just wants t control my spending of money.

Fr goodness sake.

Next, whoever I hang out with, she thinks they’re bad influences

and she’d start badmouthing them and scolding me t stay away from them.

GET A LIFE PLS.

I’m 14, going on 15 in 32days

(not that I’m trying t say tht I’m eg.21 and old enough t brk away from her)

all I want is t at least have a LITTLE more freedom.

Be it in choosing my frens and who I mix with.

I know it myself should or should I not mix with what and whatnot kind of ppl yeahs?

Then, you think tht wearin contacts make my eyes spoil.

Damn it, specs make me look funny. Like, who wear specs t shoppin??:O

Just because once upon a time, I secretly bought contacts t wear and kept it from you,

and you found out, and now,

ur just giving a pathetic excuse tht it was wholly MY fault

tht I’d kept things from you and act on my own,

and that’s why you refuse t buy contacts fr me nw.

HELL. Totally lame:X

There’s still a lot more tht I want t rant abt, but I’m lazy t say okays.

Now what? No line t use, save fr prepaid card mehs? Na, it’s impossible.

It’s alr difficult fr me t save fr contacts, much less prepaid card.

Haiyas, idk la. So contact me thru facebook,

blog, msn or my hse phone ba. Get number from me on msn(:

Please, your daughter was born with 4limbs and a proper WORKING brain
So fr motherfcuking goodness sake,

please give me more freedom and trust that I know my limits,

how and what should I and what should I not do with my pathetic life and

PLEASE DO NOT INTERFERE WITH IT.
TYVM-.-

that's all i guess, byes(:

p/s How I wished she would be able t see this post and understand how it feels like t be in my shoes._.

But she’d be hurt aft seeing this. So yeahs, better not.

p/s/s it’s alr considered not much vulgarities in this post, it was supposed t have more, but I controlled myself

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2009-12-26T12:54:00.007+08:00

present mood: despaired, heartsick, heartbroken:'(

I thought it wouldn't hurt, but yes, it still hurts alot.
There’s a hole in my heart, i’m feeling empty.

Love is giving someone th ability to destroy you but trusting them enough not to.
Yes i trusted you wholly twice, and all i got was being hurt twice.

Btw, i did accepted ur apologies(:

I shall not be too sad since i knew you once loved me(:

And at least i had said iloveyou to you in rl fr th first time last wed(:

so, there's no regrets after all(:

These silent tears are killing me:'(

Imyvvm,

:'(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2009-12-25T23:59:00.004+08:00

present mood: superr sad:'((((((

It ended.
It’s over.
Like what you said, Gameover.
Okays, I’d already accepted th fact.

I’m single again.

Since being together makes you feel tiring and unhappy, which I feel th same way too,
Perhaps being BESTBEST frens is a better option(:
Since this is what you want.
All I just want is you t be happy(:
If this is our ending, then I’ll let It be bahs, forcing this love brings no happiness anyw(:

I cried non-stop just now, but even so, at least I guess I’m stronger this time(:
It didn’t hurt as much as th first time.
From th first day we patched, I already know things won’t go smoothly as I expected.
So yeahs, now I see th ending.
Let this be an experience(:

I’ll lose you as a stead, but I guess I will not lose you as my BESTBEST fren^^ HAHAS

But anyw, I just want t say that I’ll never forget th happy and loving times we had spent together during th 6+months and the past 12 days:D
Thanks alot fr th unforgettable memories that’ll last forever(:

I don’t know if I should be sad or happy now, but I know I’m stronger now:D
And nothing can make me fall:D

Lastly, I love you(:

sayonaras

2009-12-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

OK YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:DDDDDDDDDD
IT'S 12MIDNIGHT!!!!!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMASSSS!!!!!
AHHAHAS, OK, I FEEL TH ATMOSPHERE NOW,
MY PHONE KENA SPAM LIAO
LOL:D

:@@@

2009-12-24T23:30:00.003+08:00

present mood: bad, pekcek, don't mention abt it>:((

Yohs people!:D
Short post today, cos I’m tired and not in th mood:(
Here’s good girl talkin t u okays,
imagine me doin hw this morning all th way from 1, all th way t 6.30am!
HAHAS, I finished my whole workbook homework leys!^^V

My mum allowed me t go out today bcos of tht:D
Overslept this morning:C
Rushed out t meet baby and marcus at lot, then they went shoppin ard fr bags n wallets(:

Later on, met up wif cg, jj, sister’, huiy, glory’, kamho
Went t Jurong Point cos jj, huiy wanted t make th DIY cake fr *winkswinks
HAHAHS, went fr dinner at Ajisen Ramen aft tht,
Didn’t enjoy it la, cos seriously, I think th Tom yam noodles tht I cooked on tues,
Taste better loh, plox:c

Perhaps of th lack of slp, my mood th whole day very suckish,
kept on kp ppl, sorrysorry:( :( sighs..

idk why sia, is ego tht important?
Tht you failed t spare a thought fr others’ feelings?
Please la, who are you manzxc, don’t down there step like 1 ‘BIG THING’ la
You so big uh, kiss arse manzxc.
Cos seriously it irks me right t th core man, they can stand it, I CAN’T
._.

Just a few cravens, plus those who follow th flow, disgusts me.
Like, wtf man, now I’m not trying t be irritating and kick up a fuss over some minor stuffs ok
It’s just like, an apple doesn’t just fall from th tree by itself,
It’s also because of gravity and everything else rgt?
Everything happens because of a reason.
I down here kpkb is definitely not because I nothing t do ok

And you all can do is just open one eye, close one eye.
If not, you just ‘happily’ submit t actor’s demands and follow his wishes._.
Fr goodness sake.
PLS LA, craven, you scared what scared.
Scared kena kick out isit. Kick la, nb.
Then th others, like oso dc. Ok, suibian.
This kind of thing, idk hw you can just keep mum over it and not voice out your feelings and thoughts.
It’s dumb. Really. Idk hw th f you can actually bear with it.
Angry? Say la, keep quiet fr what?
Th apple is nt goin t fly back up t th tree and stick back there again rgt?>:x
Th problem is just gonna stay there, fr good.

Tht one also.
Hey, ur supposed t help.
But you didn’t and you took side with actor.
OK, whatever.
I shan’t care man, idk wtf I believe you again fr
It’s just another falsification.
I was naïve, I’ve only myself t blame. Yeahs wadeva.

Diao what diao, knnbccb, nb.

I’m alr trying t control myself.

It’s Christmas in 10more mins!!!!!!!:DDDD
Aiyas, I don rlly celebrate X’mas anyw, so like nt much mood either D:

Pics up tmoro!(:

Down mood, byebyes..

(:

2009-12-23T23:35:00.004+08:00

“Every relationship will end someday, whether by break-up or by the death of one partner. Relationships have cycles. They are born, they live, and they die. Just like every part of life. It is merely a part of life.”

-Tom Stine

D:

2009-12-22T21:48:00.020+08:00

present mood: i feel like dying:/
present song: Live Like We're Dying

yohs ppl:D hehs i'd been missing in posts fr 3days

back t post tdae(:

i went fr a steamboat buffet on sat evening
didn't know i had some kind of seafood allergy sia!

aft eating and talkin fr a while,

both my eyes went swollen can!

omg, i'm seriously nt exaggerating

but my eyes were DAMN swollen,

esp th left one, th upper n lower eyelid swollen,

right eye is only th upper eyelid

thn face gt a little rashes:XXX

i scared i disfigured until i cried:'(
i gt pics de okay, bt i'm nt postin
if you're interested, i'll show you(:

due t my swollen eyes, i had t slp early tht night D:

n sunday was s'posed t go out,
but i didn't went out in th end cos my eyes stil half swollen sorry peeps D:
bt my parents stil forced me go out t buy skoo books >:(

went bpp fr Subway aft tht,

this is th 2nd time i eat at Subway,

totally love Subway nw alr!^^

saw a shuai shop assistant at Subway HAHAS

immediately msged sister'

me: Omg, sister!:D Subway here got 1 shop assistant DAMN SHUAI + CUTE!!!:D:D:D

turned out she was at bpp too

went t meet her n homed together(:

yest went out t a x'mas party with brendon, gabriel n many more:D

wahs, sibei jialat, i chose th clothes fr 1+hr can

super pekcek, LOL

cos nd wear formal, modest, smart, but not too revealin

WA, nice one lol!

th party was held at their church's fren's hse

bungalow, i think LOL

damn cool, i love th pool table, swimming pool, balcony,

and th mahjong table n blahsblahsblahs(:

met many new frens dere, it was fab:D

perhaps goin t be a christian, maybe(:

MARCUS wanted me t post his BIGBIG name here(:

btw, i'm happy tht it's over(:
i hope it's really over, no more tiffs okays?:D

special today, i tried t spice up this post with dued pic okays!:D

see, how nice i am blehs:P HAHAS

{pics from 2C' chalet on 9-11Nov( i think ) LOL}

look at my short toenails and fingernails^^V

[left] i was in fact trying t cover my eyebags la LOL!

[left] now i realised why teachers owaes fail me in groomin checks HAHAHAS!!:P

[right] this was taken when i went bugis with violent' wong kamho xD

he was shopping fr shoes then, look at th mirror

there's th reflection of his butt!

that's all, tata!(:

i don't think i want t give a fcuking damn t all of you anymore:x

i'm tired, i wash my hands off everything, including my life.

and btw, fr those dumb kias, if you dunno what or whoever i'm referin t right above,

pls don't assume, thks alot fr tht.

there's no one whom i can seek attention from..

i guess, from now onwards,

th only place n thing i can turn to,

is only this blog, no one else..

(:

2009-12-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

present mood: SUPERRR HIGHHHH!!!!!!!! xDD
present song 月亮代表谁的心

yohs, lazy post nw:P

hahahas, cos i'm too high nw liao,

which is totally weird,

cos i'm supposed t be emo these few days de ok xD

so byesbyes:P

D:

2009-12-17T20:29:00.003+08:00

present mood: freaking emotional

present song: 月亮代表谁的心

ppl, i'm on th verge of dying.

not literally, of course._.

firstly, i'm always swearing vulgarities now,

no one cares either, not even baby wants t control:(

secondly, i seriously can't trust love and relationships anymore:(

i seriously hate my life now.

i guess i'm goin t live my life with a mask from now on.

it will never be th same me again:'(

i want t slap myself .

i just can't express my heartfelt thoughts and feelings in words.

and i can't slit.

So, it's emo time i guess.

no one can pei me chat on phone nowadays either:c

how t share my feelings and troubles?:'((

btw, i've nvr been t Marina Barrage before:(

someone jio me go leys:D

sudden abrupt, byes!:D

in fact, i'm just a simple girl, waiting fr a simple love, that's all.

what more can i ask for?

but it seems that i wouldn't be getting it.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2009-12-16T19:35:00.013+08:00

present mood: abit down, cos i'm tired
present song: One Last Try

never let you go again.

wees! i'm back from chalet ppl!:D

yest mornin i woke up at 730 n reached chalet at 10

LOL, clique were stil slpin then,

and i go kajiao^^

went fr breakfast, rest again,

baby's parents and sister are in th rm beside ours

tht afternoon, baby's parents bbq-ed and give us alot of food t eat

damn good rgt, tyty:D

thn we went t rent bicycles t cycle from i think 8+pm, all th way t 12+ uh

went back t chalet n i drank 3 cans of beer, weiling drank 2

HAHAS, shiok bodohzxc, i drink le then very high

i crapped alot, and i anything oso dare t say n do^^v

damn keehong lol. but at least i enjoyed it

aft i drink, my eyes nvr red, face nvr red plus i nvr vomit at all leys!

this is 2nd time i drink, 1st time 1 can only,

next target is 5cans, thn 7:D

slept while th others were playin indian poker game(?)

all woke up late in th mornin when we're s'posed t check out at 1030

th guys all went t mess up, create disaster + destroy th rm

they poured twisties on top of th air-conditioning unit,

poured damn alot of twisties in th cupboards and across th floor,

milo was spilled over th floor below th table,

they disconnected th phone n threw th receiver on th floor,

till we could hear broken pieces inside it when we shake it lmao

plus, we were alr done, but we didn't leave

we waited fr th manager and th guy t come chase us out instead

LOL. in th end they came ard 12+,

pissed like siao, kp on scold kamho they all

kamho stil went t take pics of th guy n th 'mess' right infront of tht guy

ROFL, everyone was damn crazy thn, kpt on laughin:DD

in th end, ard 1 we left,

AISEH, stil gt them 'escort' us out th chalet one leys!

duapai bodohzxc LMAO

went WhiteSands shoppin mall aft tht fr lunch n arcade,

thn t Lot 1 fr awhile(;

homed:D

superrr love this chalet manzxc,

dk when can hav another one wif clique again:(

but let's pray hard there'll be another one real soon!:D

btw, really is confirmed patch wif baby le:DD

baby, our relationship must last longlonglong kays(:

don't forget your promises and our 'talks' on mon horhs^^

another borin post again, sorry:'(

i just dont hav th bloggin skills these days -sobs

byes:D

p.s. i think i would be hurt again..

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2009-12-14T23:50:00.005+08:00

present mood: excited t go chalet in a few hrs time(:

yohs people(:

went t 2G chalet which lasts from 13-16dec

it was supposed t be their class chalet

but ended up their class ppl nvr go

yest, weiling's mum fetched me n eva t th chalet at downtown east

met up with baby, cg, marcus, irfan at th chalet,

before headin t etp

went t th haunted hse 1st

TAHA, i love th haunted hse manzxc!

but there was one point of time when baby

apparently~ hid behind me altogether with th rest,

when he was supposed t be th 1 leadin all of us

scared die me D: HAHAHS,

i didnt dare t walk, so all of us stuck dere, BLOCK WAY xD

went on t other rides like th Viking ship and th Wet and Wild'

we didnt managed t take th highest level fr th Viking cos it was taken

took th lower 1 instead. me, baby, marcus 1 row while

weiling, eva, cg, and irfan on th opposite side

my hair was like ahsiao aft th ride plox LOL

Wet and Wild' ride i took wif baby

LOL, he sat in front of me so he can help me block out th water from th front

and i wont gt splashed until so wet, but turned out

i kena splashed more than him LOL

went back fr bbq-ing.

aftermath, all of us stayed in th rm,

it was abt 11+pm, some played psp, some talked(:

i needed some time alone t emo

so i went outside our rm t think thru stuffs

baby came out t find me n we had a heart t heart talk

YAY^^v felt so much better aft tht n cheered up alot:DD

psst! he's one keehong guy:P

th rest suggested goin out t th park nearby fr a walk ard 1+ am

went there and was superrr comfortable walkin in th

cool, quiet, and peaceful night(:

abit scary thgh, like nightwalk xD

heart t heart talk wif baby abt th many probs between us

and we sort of patched aft tht^^

sorry baby, you had t ask me th same ques

over and over again fr 3+hrs xD

went back rm again fr a bath,

before everyone, except me, played cards

HAHAS, i was slpin:P tired ma!:CC

fr 26nights, i was havin slpless nights and always slept at wee hrs :(

mac breakfast early in th morn wif baby and marcus while th rest were still slpin

went back rm t hav another rest again aft(:

woke up and had bbq again

i had t leave at 4+ t rush back t cck fr tuition DD:

kena forced by mother de

nw at home aft tuition,

clique is at Kbox singing their hearts out now:'(

n weets! my mum allow me stay fr another night tmoro!:DD

guess i'm reachin dere early, ard 8+am, if i can

i cnt wait t be back at th chalet again!

sorry, this post is too naggy n borin le:(

cos i'm too tired t talk sense nw:/ HAHA

{edited on 15dec,1.40am/} clique is still at Kbox now, all th way till 2(:

gotta catch some slp now, wakin at 6.30am(:

byes(:

..

2009-12-13T13:11:00.004+08:00

present mood: i feel even worser than when i broke up with him:'((

i really don't know,

i really wish i could rewind time back t when i was a nerd in pri sch

just so tht i could be free from settling problems like this

it really is a very difficult decision

because i know no matter whom i choose,

th other party would be damn sad

but have you ever spare a thgt fr me tht

i would feel very guilty and even worser than tht person?

it wasn't what i expected either.

but nw, i'm really stuck

i thgt i wouldn't need t make a choice

i know i'm selfish

even if i were t accept you,

and perhaps, history shall repeat itself again,

but at least i will know it's over,

and i shan't harp and think over it again

at least, i know it's over

before i shall finally, move on.

But if history would nt repeat,

at least, i know i had made th right choice

if i were t be with you,

it would be damn unfair t you,

because i know i would kp on thinkin abt him

even when i'm spending times with you

i know tht would hurt you more than anything else

bcos you don't deserve this kind of treatment

i know no matter what,

as long as i'm not fully done with him,

there will never be one day tht everything would be fair t you

it'll just go on, forever.

i dw t hurt you, like how you'd say

i'm still always thinkin abt him when i'm with you,

and how i used t always mention abt him t you all th times

which spoils your mood and everything, rgt?

i know it's hurting you since 1wk ago,

i didn't want you t be like that too

it hurts t see you liddat

no matter who i choose,

i'd definitely lose one best fren, one confidante, a loved one

both of your characters are th same

you would ignore and all those crap once i nvr choose you

i really dont understand why you would be able t do that

if it's like this-it will hurt th one who didn't gt chosen damn alot

i'd rather not choose both of you

at least, i wouldn't hurt both of you

i shall take th pain myself

since it was partly my fault rgt from th start,

t drag this whole thing.. :XX

:OOOO

2009-12-12T23:46:00.002+08:00

OMF, big case liao
fkfkfk, what had i gotten myself into?!!!!
i really feel like slappin myself
ROARRRR!!!
OMGOMG, i wish t bury myelf in a hole!:C

i'm afraid i'll regret my choice:(

(:

2009-12-12T22:21:00.006+08:00

present mood: stil a bit high(:

boo ppl(:

woke up damn late tdae sia, 1+pm

last min decision t meet up wif brendon and his clique

left hse ard 3+ fr lot

then met up wif gabriel, kel and andy fr lunch

went t west coast park aft tht t watch th Sunset(:

i had lots of time goin keehong watchin

andy GAYING with kel n gabriel

WTH, is damn GAY can

most gay guy i've ever known HAHAHAS:D

they made so many obscene scenes

he's oso very SISSY la xB *OOPS

kp on complain this, complain tht

don dare go into th seawaters ROFL

wanted t go bowlin,

but turned out th place fr bowlin no more alr

then went mac fr dinner, mine was MacSpicy

th guys bought mega MacSpicy

in th end, th guys all cnt stand th spicyness LOL

esp andy, lmao

he eat until like goin crazy

th guys had an acting contest,

hav t act out many things

idk hw act so i'm th judge leys^^v

rushed home n reached at 10+^^

it was awesome goin out wif them:D

laughed like one keehong girl again today^^

they're rlly funny, esp ANDY LOL

and horh, brendon chua,

don owaes emo kays:D

must learn t control ur emotions(:

khup ppl's call de nan ren LOL!

till here, *waves:D

{ sorry, i'm in no mood t rply tags since 1 mth ago?:P perhaps few more days later!^^ i promise(: }

(:

2009-12-11T23:48:00.004+08:00

present mood: soso:/

present song: Never Be Replaced

yohs ppl(:

went out fr dentist appointment this afternoon

but it was a wasted trip oso la LOL

th dentist didnt manage t cure my tongue prob th least bit:(

sua, nvr blame her hahas^^

aft tht, went back t cck,

brendon n his brothers just finished swimmin

so went t meet them luhs(:

went t arcade 1st, DAMN IT!

Bishi Bashi, i lost t stupid brendon>:(

Daytona, gt 5 of us play, i got 5th! ^#&!(*@

HMMPHS, piss die me

brendon stil kp on suan me just nw RAWRR!!!

went t kfc afterwards, had cheesefries^^

homed aft tht, and again,

tht nt-so-gentleman guy pei me walk home xD tyty:D

ooh btw, i chged my blog song t Never Be Replaced:DD

my favourite song leys, maisiaosiao(:

i love 1st Lady songs manzxc^^

chged th music player skin too

cos apparently, this song tht i wan,

only works with this music player skin

done, g2g, bb(:

p.s. this glass heart of mine.

cheer up please

..

2009-12-10T19:37:00.008+08:00

present mood: sad and disappointed

present song: The Way I Loved You

presently eating: Cadbury dairy milk hazelnut chocolate!:D

tues 8 dec was mummy's birthday

sorry mummy, no post was dedicated t you

because i seriously have no mood t post these few days:'(

SORRY:(

on tues actually wanted t go jack's place hav lunch de

but went out t seoul garden instead

eat until damn shiok

i wan jio ppl go out eat seoul garden again!:D

who wan go, jio me oso horh!

yest went out t lot fr lunch with brendon, kel and xiangling:D

knew brendon last tues when he added me on msn LOL

aft tht we went t bugis n met up with enqi, hiewling n andy

wa, not bad not bad, made alot of new frens^^v HAHA

went bugis junction t watch Twilight New Moon

what a ''GREAT'' movie manzxc

when it ended, i thgt is th screen blacked out again

turned out was tht th movie had alr ended

what an abrupt ending!

like, grandma movie..*POOF

suddenly finished le D:

got t rush home aft tht at 9+:(

brendon chua horh~, apparently so gentlemanly-like,

pei me go home seh ROFL xD

went fr 'dinner' at 10, in th end,

cos all th foodcourts had alr closed

we ended up eatin bread and waffle under void deck lol!

homesweethome aft tht(:

th whole day was damn fun okays, LOL

kel and xiangling were very humorous(:

i had lots of fun laughin like mad xD

today was supposed t go out shoppin wif huiy

ended up nvr go cos my mum didnt let me go out:@

sorry huiy:(

tmoro mayb goin NUH again

cos my tongue gt one wound nw

it kena slit open deeply by th metal thingy >:(

hmmphs, eat n talk oso pain:(

perhaps meetin brendon and huiy tmoro^^

toodles!(:

p.s. i miss you alot :(

i really don't know what t do,

(:

2009-12-08T19:32:00.017+08:00

yohs ppl, i'm back from malaysia yest!!!!:DDD
when i'm on th way t malaysia
i alr missed all of you alot le okays!, hehes^^

wanted so much t blog abt th past few days
but i'm lazy nw, so i shant
perhaps some other day:P
i'll just post all th pics,
lazy t do th bloggin part^^

anyw, sorry t say tht th pics are all jumbled up,
sorry(:

i super love slpin those few nites,
eh, 2 king sized beds leys
who wouldn't love that?:D

these pics are taken due t boredom sitting in th car xD

th temp outside then was crazy D:

green tea and sort of peppermint ice cream rockzxc!!:DD

brace urself fr pink stuffs!!^^V

thgh i'm nt an auntie, but i just simply love th pink cooler bag!!:D

damn it, i nearly screamed my lungs out when i saw these soft plushies from 10m away!

RAWRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

walao, who receive this as a gift would be damn fortunate loh:(

hmmphs, i wanted t buy it

but my mum don allow TSK:X

it costs RM$89.90

LOL, calculate it in sg dollars ba

exorbitant manzxc:'((((((

couldn't bear t leave th plushies when i was abt t leave

and that was why i sneakily took a pic of it( omg that's bad of me )

i must rmb th look of it and buy it next time!!^^V

mmmm, strawberry dragon beard candy damn nice plox:DD

oh ya, hahas, whenever i eat,

i'd purposely run t my family n 'blow' th powder onto their faces from my mouth LMAO!

i wanted t buy this pudding!!

PINK!(:

oh manzxc!!

i love this shop tht sell th pink heart shap plushies TTM!! xDD

th whole shop is PINK!!

dang, love th shop(:

i kp on go in and out of th shop hahahas

these is th 'bing tang hu lu' or smth,

sorry, idk hw translate ROFL

freakin nice!

it's cold, and gt 4 flavours

cheery tomato, grape, orange, strawberry

i bought th grape n strawberry

inside is th fruit, outside is a frozen syrup layer

and when you bite, th syrup layer will 'crunch!'

and there goes th juicy fruit!!! xDD

HAHAHAHS, NICE RGT?!!:D

gt feel like eatin it too?:B

i alr miss it nw:(

omg , i love this watch man!

finally found one tht i rlly love liao xD

i was rlly surprised when i just bought this watch

cos it was just th right size fr me sia

my wrist freakin skinny de LOL

very diff find a suitable one fr myself

berjaya times square,

k la, it rocks totally,

t me, it's bigger than vivo city

damn lots of things t shop!!:DD

i think it consists of 10 or more than 10 floors(:

oi see!! th lift buttons, wl

so many buttons

i hvt even take th picture of all th buttons ok

this is only part of it

too bad didnt had th time t played th rides, boo..:(

bt nvm , i played b4 2 yrs ago, wif val they all HAHAS

midvalley shoppin centre x'mas decoration is nice too!^^

these things look familiar t all of you?(:

wees!!~ green tea ice cream again!!:P

and mango + passionfruit ice cream

haagen-dazs ice cream okay, maisiaosiao:D

and again, i was bored,

thus this photos(:

i love this pic th most,

but i only hav half a heart:'((

whr's my other half:(

SCENERIES!!:DD

took them when i was bored, AGAIN

perhaps goin out tmoro(: see how

signing off, *twists(:

(:

2009-12-07T21:43:00.006+08:00

weets, went on a sentosa+vivo outing trip with clique last fri:D
it was damn awesome!
they rlly made me laugh alot,
esp when we were playin in th waters

HAHAHAS,
i stil can rmb th vivid faces of weiling, cg kor' n jj
lookin at me with their surprised faces
when i laugh like one mad chicken

at th beach,
i don rlly know how t swim cos i 4gt le
hahas, luckily gt peeps like cg, jj and esp violent'
t look out fr me, thks dudes^^

oh yehs, weiling, eliz and me wore bikinis
LOL actually didnt wanted t took off my tanktop
but in th end violent' kp on ask me play water
so no choice, wore it into th waters in th end
lmao, someone wear bra into th waters leys:PP
but i cannot say is who xD HAHAHAS
i think tht person will kill me LOL

went vivo after tht fr kfc
thn i nd rush back home t go malaysia
BOO!!!

oh btw, SOMEONE apparently wan me t mention abt him in th post hor
hahas, he wan me mention tht i morning-called him n msged him LOL

alrites, let th pics do th talkin(:

ee, nowadays i smile so not nice:(

OMG, james damn cute!!!:DDDDDD

hahas, no hands!

stil hav alot of grp pics with other peeps
i'll get them from them later(:

2009-12-07T13:11:00.004+08:00

Hi everybody. I'm Julia's secret admirer to update her blog on her behalf. HAHAHA. :B

She went Malaysia on Friday night. Everybody misses her right? HAHA. She'll be back probably tonight. Apologies for the late notice as she has no time to update the day when she went Malaysia. She also says that Friday's clique outing to Sentosa and Vivo will be posted after she comes back. With lots of love, :)

P/S: Shermaine was originally asked to help her post, but her comp's still down at the moment. That's why I had a chance to help my crush update. HAHA. :B
P/S/S: It's Shihui here la. :D

(:

2009-12-03T20:41:00.006+08:00

hmms, quite lazy t post nowadays xD

many ppl would be there fr me,
supportin me, encouragin me, listenin t my woes,
sharing my miseries
and listen t me blabber abt my grandmother stories days and nites:D
HAHAHAS me love die them ttm!! :B -inserts luvs-

lately, in th EARLY MORNINGS,
got either d, k, or c pei me chat on phone until late into th nights
thks loads loads!^^
hehehes, every night talk until th wee hours,
beauty slp all gone LOL
but nvm, it's worth it xD

oh yahs, i saw on fb yesterday
abt th 'In 2013, i will watch 2012 and laugh'
hmms, quite interesting rgt:D
hahahahs

btw, i wanna go gym soon!:@
nd train split + workout

done, byes:D

2009-12-02T15:54:00.008+08:00

你曾经受过伤吗
你恨那个让你伤心的人吗
恨他让你从此没有办法再爱上任何人
失去了爱人的能力

但是你有没有想过
当你伤心的时候
那个人比你更伤心
你不知道他一直想找到你
告诉你当初来不及说出口的那一句话

就算全世界都反对
我也要跟你在一起

omg, im touched by th Hi My Sweetheart show(:

没有一个人
值得你为他流眼泪
谈恋爱怎么样都好
就是不要伤心
只要你曾经记得他是喜欢过你的

p.s.
遗憾总是最美的
大多数人都会怀念过去的人而不珍惜身边的人

有人说
你爱一个人多久, 就要用多久的时间去忘记他

:'(

2009-12-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

it's twelve midnight... :'(
goodbye 7th m:(

:'(((((((((((((((

2009-12-01T23:18:00.010+08:00

( down-est period of this life. )

this afternoon went out t sort of wk wif glory n huiy hahahas
th whole thing was damn LOL de
but i shan't elaborate on it bahs

life's gettin more n more boring each day D:
piano lesson early in th mornin tmoro, 9.15am
gotta wake up at 8 :X
no plans tmoro.

♡! LuciaLim. says:
*OI
*YOU BETTER NOT SLIT HOR
*MS JULIA NG
*I TELL YOU YOU WILL REGRET LIKE $@(*$*)@ ONE K.

♡! LuciaLim. says:
*really will regret de. that time i slit then really is sad more.
*cos
*you see the mark
*you think of why you slit
*isnt that worse?
*then you will think of him
*so its pain (of slitting) + more pain (of thinking of him when seeing the scars)!

lucy say i shud be strong and not t always emo,
and nt t think of foolish thoughts.
she says if i continue t be like this,
i'm also breaking many people's hearts:(
i'm sorry:'(

♡! LuciaLim. says:
*so if you cant cheer up for yourself so at least cheer up for your friends
*those who care abt you..

true i guess.. alrites, i'll try to..(:

goin t meet up wif chew n poon this fri fr a get-together thingy + emo party._.

p.s. i was looking at my wrist this morning, wondering if it'll hurt:'(

in just less than an hour,
it WAS supposed t be our 7th mth
but.. :'((

i really don't know how t spend the night tonight
cry th whole night?._.

once upon a time, i wanted t rewind back to the times when everything was perfect,
but i guess.. not all fairytales have a happy ending? :'(

D:

2009-11-30T23:00:00.012+08:00

went out t meet sister' fr lunch
n went library aft tht
actually planned t do hw
in th end was readin books LOL
went tuition aft tht.

hahas, my sms replies nowadays all super short form, no smileys,
lousy grammar n no puncuation marks D:

kept on emo-ing, being sad, n havin mood swings these days:(

btw, hearin tht song and lookin at th lyrics makes me cry:(

oh ya, my appetite had started t fail me D:
i cannot believe i'd only had 1 burger and 1/2 a waffle t last me th whole day yest
first time in my life
my appetite rlly cmi alr D:

my life nowadays sian until dunno like what,
ever since that day, everyday is not worth living anymore

p.s. i really don't understand what had went wrong

these memories are hurting like never before

i won't ask you why again:(

.

2009-11-29T22:06:00.003+08:00

super bad mood nw
i dont know why my mood today,
is so screwed up like shit

some bunch of ppl who've no feelings. zzz

i'm havin such a damn fcuk up attitude now
i really cnt stand myself

this inner voice of mine, STFU
i hate it-.-

just realised tht my sms replies these few weeks,
are all very cold and dead,
sorry t those who've msged me and received somewhat of these msges
i'm rlly sorry, i just can't chge this fact
i don't even know what took over me either.
it suck, i hate it

i think i really need a break,
from this very wtf life of mine
it's such a pain, living this fking life
i'm unlucky tht i didn't die from it

i had actually regained my smile, but i had lost it, again.

fk everything -.- zz

.

2009-11-29T21:37:00.002+08:00

btw, i think i'm chgin blogskin soon
yahs.
by then, i'll edit my profile n whatever shyt
zz super no mood
bye

:'((((((((

2009-11-29T21:34:00.005+08:00

back from outing today wif clique
cg kamho casper irfan marcus junjie peishan weiling eva eliz
went t play pool
hahas, 1st time playing it
junjie taught me hw play, thks(:
but only won once rofl

had an awesome time playin pool
but it was a bad day fr me:'(

superr sad nw.
bye.

HEYOS!:DDD

2009-11-26T22:11:00.021+08:00

heys ppl!!:D
just came back from citylink mall with sister' n huiy(:
had superrr loads of fun(:
it was awesome, we'd done quite a lot of shoppin
n took lots of pics, esp at th Fountain Of Wealth:DD

went t sister' hse early in th mornin n waited fr her t get ready
in th end, it turned out tht she was th one who had t wait fr me rofl:P

190 t Far East Plaza and walked t Lucky Plaza's Pizza Hut fr lunch,

WHOO, shiok, i love oriental baked cheese rice ttm!:D

me and sister' then went t th toilet,
me: ay, nd pay $0.20 t go toilet leys D:

sister: yah loh:(

me: they wan cheat maids' money xD ROFL

then trained down t Cityhall and went CityLink mall,

shopped fr awhile, caught my eyes on many dresses, leggings and more(:

gonna go back t buy them soon^^

while on our way to Suntec City,

we walked past a christmas tree, pics at th bottom(:

in a toilet, there goes th cameras!:B say cheese!

i look funny in this pic:P

th effect wasn't what i rlly wanted hehs

sister' look extra in th picture rgt?!^^

sister' say she's gonna print out this picture real soon!

M)phosis

mac,

was abt go home soon, but we headed t Fountain Of Wealth,

OMGOMG, th laser lightings damn nice bodohzxc!

made th whole place freakinfreakin CHIO!!:DDD

was screamin when i saw th place hehs

n we were takin pics like nobody's business

was rlly high then(:

here goes(:

i especially love th pink laser lightings!!^^

idk why huiy like t stand slanted LOL

went in t touch th waters^^

and oh yea, there was a photographer over there who

kindly helped us took photos with our own camera althgh it's

against th rules, good right(: * twists

toilet-ed before leavin fr home

byebyes,

..

2009-11-25T13:39:00.011+08:00

hey ppl(:

i went out wif huiy n glory t bpp yest

had a great time chattin n slackin wif them

esp th time when we it was abt 8+pm

we were sittin outside mac

and me n glory suddenly went superrr crazy

hahahas me and her were superrr keehong

laughin like drunkards and behavin superrr immature

unglam somemore okays lmao

oh yahs, there was this cockroach crawlin towards us

n huiy screamed damn loud lmao

and it caused quite a commotion,

glory then trapped th cockroach under th table's stand

i asked glory t let th cockroach free

in th end, th cockroach ran away LOL

dumb sister', she didnt want t come down t meet us yest,

let me tell you,

YOU'D BETTER FSTR LEAVE YOUR HOUSE NOW

OR YOU'RE SO GONNA ROT AT HOME! @%!$&*

pics from yest,

today went fr piano lesson n back home

no one's free t go out tdae:(

ppl are busy due t camps, ccas, relatives' hse,

recreational activities, housewarming parties,

outing with their other half :'(

sadded hais:(

nvm, i shall concentrate on watchin Hi My Sweetheart todae then(:

just strted last nite and huiy n changzheng recommended it

shud be quite nice^^

anyw, ppl, i've just gt t know abt a website

HAHAHAS, fr girls only la

guys, NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS don kpo xD

th link>>> http://happyitshere.com.sg/

from there,

i gt t noe tht today, there's no sign of th green eyed monster,

meaning my jealousy is at an all-time low tdae:D

i oso gt t noe tht i may feel extra flirty and more affectionate on 30nov omg LOL

that's next mon hahas

P.S. and i realised yesterday was the day exactly after one week since we broke up:((

I just realised that time seems t pass so slowly since th day we broke up.

It's only been 9 days, but why do i feel like it has been weeks??

byebye:DD

9th day, and i'm still counting

(:

2009-11-23T22:18:00.005+08:00

whoo, tdae went out wif eva and weiling t causeway point:D
watched My Girlfriend Is An Agent movie, damn funny
worth catching:D

went seoul garden aft tht
wha, when we went in, th whole place reek of smoke can
ate fr ard 3hrs
and left fr a shop t do th glass deco art thingy(idk wats tht called)

th whole time, th 3 of us reeked of smoke can
can say it's considered smelly:( LOL

ooh btw, i didnt go fr tuition tdae,
cos we finished th bufet at 5.45,
tuition was s'posed t be at 6
wanted so much t do th glass deco art thingy
thts why i decided t give tuition a miss,
gonna gt scoldin from my mum later:'(

alrites, short post tdae(:
i'll post tdae pics tmoro cos th pics are in weiling's phone(:

ciao, *waveswaves LOL:D
7th day, and i'm still counting

p.s. i msned you, but you didn't reply:(

:(

2009-11-23T09:55:00.005+08:00

i think i'm still weak,
perhaps, perhaps i still can't do it?:(((

imy,

:D

2009-11-22T21:07:00.003+08:00

heys ppl(:

went out t lot at abt 3+ today t meet huiy n glory
had lunch n we went t MOF!!:DDD

hahas, this tues we just went MOF(me, huiy, glory n eva)
tht time we ordered macha kakigori n peach kakigori
$6.80 each, then we shared(:

then tdae we went MOF n ordered macha kakigori
next, i pei huiy n glory t optical shop

after pei huiy n glory go optical shop,
i suggested goin back t MOF t hav another kakigori LOL
when we went in, th staff surprised t see us again
we ordered mango kakigori this time
then we very full, n we slacked dere awhile

suddenly th guys(staff) all laughin like siao LOL
we realised they were laughin over a 'quite plump' woman
usin th slimmin machine at ogawa
u noe, tht kind of machine where u stand on, n ur whole body will shake?
then her body fats shakin like siao then th guys laughin like mad
LOL, then we kena influence t laugh oso:/
but we were more of laughin bcos of th way th guys are laughin la k
nth t do wif th woman(:
we're nice ppl okays(:

aft awhile,
boss: wan me treat ur eat another bowl anot?:D
glory: anything loh!:D
he then asked his staff make us a bowl of macha zen
LOL, it's a bowl of red bean wif macha ice cream n rice balls
then cos on tues n todae when we ordered th kakigoris,
we told them ours dw th red bean
then they were like surprised tht we so weird
they kp on ask why we dw th red bean

thts why nw th guys purposely wan treat us eat th red bean
they kp on laughin at us when we eat LOL
and u noe wat, aft we ate th 1st scoop,
1 of th guy walk over t us wif th receipt n place on th table
he: nahs, this is th receipt, pls pay $7.80
then glory take th receipt n throw one side LOL!
turned out they jokin wif us only hahas

we kp on force ourselves eat sia
th red bean is freakin sweet plox
then huiy n glory kp on wan ask fr water lmao
turned out th water they giv us is tap water lai de
n later we realised th drinks tht they serve customers
oso is use tap water de, very LOL rgt

aft tht, we were DAMN FULL
then we couldnt move so we sat dere
then we saw th boss walkin over t us wif a bowl of mango kakigori
me n glory were lookin at each other, stunned
we were like 'don tell me he treatin us another bowl? DD: '

and then, he rlly serve us th mango kakigori sia!
we superr chuatio
boss: na, treat ur eat:D
we: *exchange stunned looks HUH? again? wth, so full le:/

then we force ourselves eat AGAIN LOL
n we realised, they anyhow mix the macha syrup n RED BEAN(AGAIN!) inside
so gt mango syrup + macha syrup + red bean:X
RED BEAN AGAIN!!
they did it on purpose de okays! LOL!

n let me emphasise, we rlly is eat until damn sick of th taste:X
hahahas,we eat until lie on th table, like we drunk liddat lmao

then eat finish le,
n we were like 'WAH GOD, LIKE, SO FINALLY!'
HAHAHAS
th macha zen n th mango kakigori tht they treat us add up t $14.60
we wanted t pay fr it, but they so no nd,
they say they treat us cos we cute leys:PP HAHAHAS, KEEHONG
they good right?^^v
so now must advertise fr them LOL
must go support them kays xD

aft we left, i nearly vomited:(
cos huiy n glory cnt eat alr,
thts why i eat th most,
hahas, i stuff overshot:xx

anyw, today gt secret admirer sms me leys
lmao, th contents are confidential

sighs, stil sort of sad today:'((
k la, i go emo le:/

byes,
6th day, and i'm still counting, still waiting fr tht day:(

(:

2009-11-21T16:01:00.006+08:00

"Every girl needs a man.
You know, the kind that’ll treat you right.

The kind that has enough respect for you & is willing to change, just to be with you.
The kind that searches for you with all his heart & that can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls.

Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her because he knows she’s got all that he wants & needs already.
He won’t mind calling you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night;
maybe even sing you a good morning song & tell you a bedtime story or talk to you until you fall asleep.
This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you,

even if it’s to just go to the store & buy you your favorite kind of candy.

He would defend & fight for you & wouldn’t bail on you for his friends when you need him most.
The kind that won’t leave you lonely & wondering; the one that calls you surprisingly,
even if he’s out with his friends, just to tell you that he loves & misses you a lot.
The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around & tell them, “She’s the one”.

The kind that appreciates you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little.
The ones that actually thank you for the little love notes you leave him,
waits for you when you’re falling behind, & opens doors for you.

Every girl needs a man who will take you out on dates once in awhile
& buys you flowers just because it’s a Wednesday.
The kind of guy that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him.

He would remind you that he loves you & that he’s happy to be with you, just in case you forget.
The kind that doesn’t just want kisses & hugs, but to actually be loved & to love.
You deserve a guy that will call you beautiful instead of hot, who kisses your forehead when you’re down,
tells you to be strong & to not cry, & when you do cry, he’d cry with you when times are hard.

The kind that will go through thick & thin with & for you.
The kind that just loves you for who you are & not for who you aren’t
and loves you because you’re his favorite girl in the whole wide world."

( credits go t zhixian:D )

i'm wonderin if there would ever be a guy like this, LOL
though it's abit impossible, but it may still be possible right?:P
LOL, i wish all th single girls in th world would have this kind of guy! (abit too wishful thinkin of mine rgt :B)
hmms, but excluding me(:
i dw one:D
believe me not? xD *sniggers and runs away:P
HAHAHAS

btw, i've FINALLY finished replyin this 2 months of unreplied tags!:D
woots, great sense of achievement(:

tdae stil abit sad:(
seeing you sad makes my heart aches D:

havin quite a headache now, perhaps gonna hav a nap soon!(:

ciaozxsc!:D

this song fully talks about my feelings,

2009-11-21T10:10:00.005+08:00

Sorry didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
and so I surrendered, just to hear your voice.

Don't know how many times I said I'm gonna live without you,
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you,
but there's something, baby that you need to know.
That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking.

*chorus*
Baby, give me back my fantasy.
The courage that I need to live, the air that I breathe.
Living without you, my world's become so empty.
The days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste the purest of pain.

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better everyday
that it didn't hurt when you walk away,
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way

And deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking.

*chorus* 3x

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it.
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
and so I surrendered just to hear your voice.

听到我的电话响了一声就暂停
会不会是你我总怀疑
因为这原因心情不稳定
我们之间的问题是我不相信你
敏感又多心怕你变了心
因为爱你害怕失去你
爱的天气总是阴晴不定
爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣
baby

(baby)想对你说声对不起
用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意
(如果没有你)
我的世界只剩回忆
每天只面对孤寂
已来不及再说我爱你

自从那天分手后停不住泪滴
想念一个人能忘记自己
让我爱你什麽都愿意
如果能再遇见你把你抱紧
从此不分离绝不放弃

我要告诉你
baby i'm sorry

great, this song fully talks about my feelings, esp th chi version:((
i'm sooo totally obsessed with both versions of this song:D

but th after effects may make one emotional
more suitable fr people who are sad, like ME hahas:D

but seriously, yeahs, i've nth much else t say,
all that i want to say to you, are in this song,
guess you should know by now

[edited]
oh damn it!!! @#^%*$&
there are 5 ants crawlin ard th computer table!! GRR!
SHOOSHOO!! SHOO!!!!!........ D:
don make me spout vulgarities!! D:<
i alrdy said i won't spout vulgarities anymore le!^^V

till here, (:
5th day, and i'm still counting

(:

2009-11-20T21:16:00.016+08:00

went out wif sister' t orchard today(:

hahas, n i realised tht i keep on talkin n mentionin abt him t everybody since tues

many ppl kpt on complaining tht i keep on talkin abt him n tht i shud stop talkin abt him
i'm really sorry ppl, hahas, just cnt stop harping n being sad over it:'(

hahahs bear wif me kays ppl

really sorry:(

anyw, me n sister' bought th same wallet today!:D

wee~ love it manzxc(:

i saw it first n i told sister' abt it

n she told me she alr wanted t buy tht wallet long ago

i bought pink n hers is black, both damn chio de!:DD

she wanted t take a pic of th wallets

but i didnt want t^^v

me n sister' were talkin abt smth at first n this is a part of it(:

me: EH, no loh, my love fr th guys i love is increasin from th first one t th nxt one de okays!

From 'b' t casper, it was increasin. UNLIKE YOURS~ decreasin de, from 'b' t 'j' HAHAHHHAS!!!:P

sister':*speechless

LMAO, i love suan-ing sister' ttm!!^^v

one more was cos we were at th bus stop n we saw 1 guy alone wif 2 girls,

sister': i don like guys who..
me: are th only one when wif girls rgt?! hahas, i noe wat u wan say la, i oso saw
sister': YAYA! somemore is those shuai ge wif buang girls rgt?

me: hahas, yahs

sister': all th mei nu jue zhong liao!(pretty girls extinct alr)

me: jue zhong means extinct uh?

sister': ya

me: WAHS, NO LOH. everyone stil mei nu, nvr extinct, except fr you!:P

successfully suan-ed her once more!^^

last but not least, some pics from today wif sister' b4 i end this post(:

sampat sister', pastin her fake eyelashes on th bus,

very L-O-L rgt

damn sad these days:( sighs

i look haggard in th photos:(

they say girls in love look radiant

perhaps that is why i don't look radiant :(((

:D

2009-11-19T18:53:00.011+08:00

i've got t know about 3 detestable things just ard 1+h ago,
when i went out wif sister', sx, huiy' n xinyi(:
shan't say what it's about kays(:

but i'm really glad that it were these 3 things, or rather facts( not proven yet )
made me cheer up a whole lot more^^v
perhaps only fr awhile, bt i hope it'll cheer me up forever:D

anyw, greatgreatgreat thanks t these people:DD

amanda
anta
changzheng
chuanguan
daryl
denise
elizabeth
eva
fiona
gloria
javern
jethro
jiaqi
joan
joel
jovita
joyce
junhao
junjie
kamho
karina
kelly
lucia
mandy
marcus
melvin
nicholas
peiling
phyllis
shaoxiang
shermaine
shermaine c.
shihui
shimin
stanley s.
stanley w.
venus
weiling
yu khoon
zhenling
zhixian

thanks a million fr being there fr me when i was down n needed all of you most(:
thks fr listenin t my woes n 'grandmother' stories hahahas,
n bearin wif my stubborness while comforting, encouraging, n advising me^^
really appreciated everything tht you all hav said(:
p.s. i realised some can be counsellors nxt time while some cnt HAHAHAS!:P
LOVE YOU GUYS TO TH MAX!:DD
THANKS(:

i'm really trying very hard,

OOH YAHS! i smiled today, just over a minor thing tht happened at NUH(:
GAHS, like finally, a smile from me!:D

since there's no more true love:(
i've got t be strong, no more cryin fr nw!(: i hope

link :http://entertainment.sg.msn.com/Features/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3707546

Her toughest scene."It's when Edward tells Bella it's all over and they're never going to see each other again. There's nothing like it in reality. It's not even like a normal breakup scene because I know what it's like to get broken up with. I don't know what it's like to get broken up with by a vampire. It's like suddenly whatever has addicted an addict is taken away from them and they go through total withdrawal. That's what Bella was going through. To portray that was really intimidating."

.

2009-11-18T23:55:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY t nicholas!:D

hahas, sorry, don kill me,
i noe this post very borin la
but don blame me, i'm in a superrr bad mood these days:'(
sorry k(:

:'((((((((((((((

2009-11-18T14:14:00.005+08:00

i don't want t do it, i just can't:'(((

without you by my side,
i don't think love exists anymore:(

they say time is the best medicine,
but t me, it's actually one that is torturous,
n it will make me even more sick,
that i'd rather die than t eat it... :'(

i realised i haven't said iloveyou to you 2weeks before we break
even if i wanted t say them now,
i can't, it's too late:'(
i regret not having th chance anymore:'(

if only i hav th chance once more:'(

2009-11-17T20:00:00.001+08:00

it's really th end, it's all over,
i wish everything could rewind,

i'm freaking sad now,
no words can explain my sorrows n misery

this mornin when i woke up,
th first thing i thgt abt was if everything tht had happened,
was it all just a dream?
i cried, they weren't.
wth was up wif me?

i crossed th road starin into space,
without carin engh t look ard fr cars
wth was i doin?

i was thinkin abt us, when suddenly,
a butterfly just came flyin past me,
it scared me, n i just broke down into tears,
wth was wrong wif me?

i was in piano lesson today,
when my thgts went wanderin, thinkin abt us,
n tears strted t fall,
why cnt i control myself?

i've gt no appetite n i hav no mood fr practically everything
why is tht so?

I CRY EVERY HALF HOUR,
what's th point? i really don't know:'(

it's just all because of you?

i've got to be strong, but i just can't
i've got t hold on, get a life, move on,
but basically, what else can i do but cry?

yeahs, my mind got it, bt my heart didn't:(
it happened too sudden,

i just can't believe you were this heartless,
you said it is best for both of us,
no i don think so?
you're so selfish, thinking only about yourself,
have you ever thought about what i wanted?
all i wanted was just us again,
but all you've gt t say was only,
'But idw. Sorry. I made up my mind'
did you spare a thought fr me?
dont claim tht you did, bcuz you did not
i wanted t give us another chance,
but u didnt wan to,
there's nth more i can do alr, really:'(

besties told me t move on n find better ones,
bt why am i still holdin on so tightly??
tht's because i knew if i were t let go,
there will nvr be us again:'((

it just pains me t see my status, in your heart, change
from someone called baby, girlf, t just a fren

i realised you're still on my mind all this while,
n my life's incomplete without you.
i realised that it actually doesn't matters how you treat me,
i love you fr who you are.
it doesn't matter if you still can't change,
i just want you back:(

this may be th first, but i guess it's gonna be my last too
i've lost trust in guys and relationships

i was cryin as i was postin:'((
but i guess it won't matter much t you, rgt?:(

(credits go to joann(: )

1)he maybe who u wan
but u may not be who he wan
he may be who u wont hurt
but u may be who he may hurt
so same thing
u may cherish this thing
but he may not
and remember :
1x1 =1
1x0 = 0

2)th best way to give someone happiness is to let them free from being hurt

3)a. let things settle down give both of u time to cool down
b. get control of urself

4)
*time heals all wound
*u keep crying
*u also will cry til sian one
*u will think
*why so pointless
*since everything is over
*just drop it
*its just like taking exams
*u fail
*cannot retest one what
*and every exam is brand new piece
*so is like having a new boyfriend
*just have to study them more before u commit
*as in those ppl who jio u la

(credits go t changzheng:D LOL)

1)No matter what, once in your life, someone will hurt you.
That someone will take all that you are, and rip it into pieces.
And I can be sure they won’t even watch where the pieces land.
But through the breakdown, you’ll learn something about yourself.
You’ll learn that you’re strong.
And that no matter how hard they destroy you,
you can conquer anyone the minute you let it go.
Remember this hard k

Hold On
Cause an empty room
Can be so loud
There's too many tears
To drown them out
So hold on
Hold on

So don’t give up, stand till the end
Cause there’s more to life than just to live

When you love someone
And they break your heart
Don’t give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on
Hold on

how ironic:( you didn't even want t patch:'((

waiting fr you(:

2009-11-16T14:47:00.001+08:00

waiting fr you,
i'm waiting fr you,
waiting fr you kiss me at the night

OMGOMG! i love this song!!!:DD

th end

2009-11-16T13:20:00.000+08:00

I just can't believe you're gone,
Still waiting for morning to come
Wanna see if the sun will rise
Even without you by my side

When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it I'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart.

th end.

2009-11-16T13:17:00.025+08:00

th end,

i didn't expect it t happen so soon.
since that's how you feel,
then i shan't care about you anymore le

cried, talked about it, cried, IT'S OVER.
relieved i guess,
i smiled, because it's finally over

almost th end

2009-11-16T13:15:00.015+08:00

almost th end,

it's such a pain t continue, but yet,
i didn't had th courage t face th truth and make a decision.

...................

2009-11-14T21:11:00.011+08:00

sighs, i'm totally lost and confused now:'(
shud i or shud i not?..
i'm afraid,

went imm aft leavin jurong regional library(HCL event) wif sister'
wanted t go dere 'seesee' but no kick, no guys t see de D: LOL!

walked ard n went Giant shop awhile
thn me n sister' were like tryin out almost all th cosmetics n hair sprays testers
like so LMAO la, laokui hahahas

once, we tryin out th testers of a hair mist spray
thn this guy from behind us reach in front of us
n took a bottle of hair cream n walked away
thn aft ard 10mins, he came back again
he put back th previous bottle
n he took another bottle of th same hair cream again, then he left

aft a while, me n sister' walked t another shelf
sister' said tht before then, when we were at 2nd floor,
he walked past us n he kept on lookin at sister'
n she said he maybe stalkin us

suddenly, he came back t th previous shelf tht we were at
n he put bac th 2nd bottle of hair cream n strted t take another bottle
put back, take tht, put back
th whole time me n sister' were lookin at him
then th guy suddenly turned over n look at me n shermy sia
is nt glance lehs, is look non-stop!
then he fstr walk away

then me n sister' went aft him, we wanted t see if he rlly stalkin us
then he go ard th supermarket n he walk very fast
n he kept on u-turnin back, n we kept on meeting until each other
then when he walkin, he kept on turnin back sia
me n sister' then pretended like we were shoppin
like wth, then in th end me n sister' fstr leave th place hahas

went 7eleven n we bought th Naughty G t try
hahahahs, omf, it's a freakingggg nice drink pls!!!:DD
it taste a bit like soda! gasey de:D
P.S. it didn't make me feel horny!
so i can assure its nt some drink tht will make u craving fr sex okays!(:
so dont think wrong horh ppl(:
lolx cos sister' kept on askin if i gt become horny ornot
bt i don think i gt feel rlly energetic aft drinkin it
to me, i think i felt th same HAHAHAS

anyw, i found out th original flavour of Naughty G has i think 500+ energy value
n th other flavours of naughty g, hav superr lower energy value, esp th sugar free flavour
n i checked tht red bull, as compared t naughty g, is PEANUTS loh!!
th redbull energy is 400+ only (:

went home aft tht,
n i tried maple today, it was quite okay la(:

some pics of th day, let them do th talkin:D
some gifts which i thgt were cute christmas gifts:D

FREAKIN CUTE RGT???!!! xD

p.s. this is me n sister's inside joke,
if you noe it, pro you:D
if you dunno, too bad xD
*hint- th words(:

th baby is superrr cute rgt?!!!:D i wan one too!

this was th time when me n sister' bought some kind of anchovies cos i wanted t buy it
n at th same time, make it seem not so obvious tht we are stalkin tht guy(:
sister' damn sampat rgt? LIKE AUNTIE LOL!! xD

when we were abt t leave, sister' saw a cute guy n asked me t chase aft him
LOL, wth, he walked damn fast
he's workin in lee hwa jewellery(:
saw him n yahs, he's cute la:D

i played wif my dog n i wanted t pull my hand away cos th dog was abt t lick my hand,
i pulled my hand away too fast n i hit until th wooden board
thn hav one red bruise alr:(

byes ppl, gonna slp soon,
mummy said perhaps goin m'sia t shop tmoro(:
woohoos!! shoppin spree, here i come again!!:D YEAH!xD

there's no point holdin onto something tht won't last

2009-11-13T16:58:00.007+08:00

i guess there's no point anymore,
cries,

he played a little too exaggerated i guess:x

omf! freakin nice!!!!:DDDD but very diff t play leys:'( he's so talented(:

omf, I FREAKINGG LOVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!:DDDD

DAMN, superrr love this!!
can see tht it was super difficult t play this loh
th piano score must be damn messy HEHEH:B

n i was wondering hw th hell he can learn so many songs at one go loh
somemore he plays w/o th piano scores de!!
PRO BODOHZXC
love him liao

like wth, stil can play so fast sia,
n his hands stil can jump from higher octaves t lower octaves:O
*clapsclaps